It’s almost 3 A.M. and I have tried…Lord knows…to go to sleep. I am so tired I am buzzing, but alas…here I sit, having given up trying. Mainly it’s that restless leg thing plaguing me tonight and keeping me awake. But my mind’s full of thoughts too. You know…the typical ones after a senseless shooting rampage like the one in Colorado last night. I feel sadness for the victims and their families, questions in my mind about the shooter and why he did it. And then there are the feelings that come as reminders to be good to one another while we’re living that always come when sudden deaths or tragedies like this happen. Be good to each other! Why is that so difficult? Pride.
But all we can do there is our own part. You can’t control what others do…you can only seek in yourself to be good to people in your life…even ones who are just passing through your life for a moment in some way, and to let go of bitterness and forgive ones who hurt you or do you wrong, deal honestly and lovingly with people, regardless of what they do back.
Ah, but it’s not always easy, is it? It takes courage and self control to do all that…as well as humility at times, and this isn’t a world where humility is thought of as being a strength. It’s back to the old thing about being tough…coming out on top, etc.
Whatever. I’m just tired and frustrated because of it, and I really need so badly to go to sleep. I have tons to do this weekend, even though there isn’t school.
But seriously…be good to each other. Tell the people in your life that you love them. Tell the people you’ve hurt that you’re sorry, and forgive the ones who have hurt you.
And yes, God is good…always. Even in the midst of horrible evil, God is good and I am so thankful for His love and mercy…every day.
Love and blessings,