I hate when you’re having a perfectly nice, calm day and all of a sudden, out of the blue, something happens to make you feel like you just got punched in the gut. I want a world with no worries and no problems. I’ve seen enough trials that I would appreciate that kind of world just fine…I don’t need any more adversity to show me how good the good times are, or anything. I want to wake up with a smile and a spring in my step, and go to bed with a smile, after a good and productive day, and closing my eyes and drifting off to a pleasant dream land. I’m not selfish about it…I don’t want y’all to have anymore problems either! I’ll happily share my bliss. 🙂
So what happened to get me in this mood? I got a bill in the mail…a really old bill, from a collection agency, that I could swear I paid…but hey…it’s been several years and I don’t have the record of it anymore. Still, I made the mistake of picking up the phone and calling the number on the bill…talking to a guy who I had trouble understanding and kept having to ask him to repeat himself…doing all I could do to keep from saying some bad words in there too. He put me on hold to get someone else and I just hung up the phone. I was already shaking. Still shaking inside, actually. And I’m frustrated for even picking up the phone. What did I think…that the person on the other end would say, “Oh…sorry for our mistake. You paid it…all is well!” I knew that wasn’t going to happen.
So now I’m left feeling sorry for losing my temper again, and just saying, “Please God…just make it all disappear! And forgive me for losing my temper…again.” If someone finds it…put it in a safe place for me please, where I won’t lose it anymore…staple it to my head maybe?