…of outrageous fortune. LOL Not really. Just coming by to say I know I’m moody at times these days. I’m not going to apologize though. And I know that not everyone understands. Truth be told, neither do I at times. But I DO know it will be okay…no matter what else is going on. I never forget that. And I DO know how very blessed I am in the midst of anything else that’s going on that might be unpleasant. I just can’t control the emotions at times. Like I said, some people will have answers for that…I’m not doing this right or I’m doing that wrong or something. And I understand that attitude. But even if that is the case at times, I’m still not going to apologize for that because I am human and we all stumble and fall or flail around sometimes through things that sometimes genuinely get to be too much. Well…they never are truly too much. God is able. I NEVER get to a place where I don’t think that. And I never will. I do succumb to moments of ‘feeling’ like it’s too much…and I get the angry feelings, or can’t stop the tears from falling (if I get the angry feelings you can rest assured the tears aren’t far behind…because it means I lost control.) 🙂
I’ll be okay…and hopefully those people in my life who genuinely care about me and genuinely know me and my heart will remain, and not judge me harshly because of moments when I’m not at my best in whatever way it is. But I won’t pretend to be something I’m not, either. I won’t play like I’m happy if it feels like my world is falling apart. And if I’m supposed to be happy anyway…sometimes I can, and sometimes I can’t…but whatever you get will be genuine. That, I can promise you. 🙂 If you don’t like the ‘real me’ during those down moments…well, sometimes I don’t like her much either. But hopefully we both can survive her together.
Love and blessings,