I’ve been experiencing some turmoil within lately. One one hand, I’ve been very blessed and thankful for what God has been doing in my life in such incredible ways! And then there are these other things…things of necessity that have caused me to go back into a place of all kinds of self doubt, and in the end it all leaves me very conflicted.
I can’t be completely specific here for some particular reasons. But in the end, what I simply must remember is that God wants me to trust Him. Right? Of course it’s right! That’s first and foremost what He wants…for me to look to Him and trust Him, regardless of anything else that’s going on around me or any other voices in the midst. That’s not easy to get to that place though…of focusing solely on God and His will when you’re not clearly hearing that yet.
So…in addition to trusting, and awaiting the clear directions from my Abba, I have to also step out, trusting. Sometimes you have to just wait and not step out. He will even make it so that you have no choice sometimes if he has to, like a parent with a restless child who has to take that child and sit her in his lap and hold on to her, and whisper firmly in her ear, “Sit still!”…just like God says, “Be still and know that I am God.” (Ps. 46:10a) And even when we have to step out, He’s still saying that to us, in the sense that we are not supposed to worry…not supposed to look around at all those voices telling us what direction to go in…we are supposed to be still and know that He is God…our Abba…we can trust Him…He will not let us down.
So, I’m about to do some stepping out in ways…and meanwhile eyes focused on Him for how I know He will direct my path, even if I’m blindfolded in the process. I know that I may step out and start down a path to have Him turn me around in a different one. But I know…that as long as I am truly keeping my eyes on Him and trusting, all will be well.
I’m asking you for your prayers that I will be able to be still and know that He is God, and Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths.
“Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.”
And thank you all so much for blessing me these last couple of months with your blogs and your friendship and encouragement. You have blessed me more than I can say!
Love and blessings,