Why I Believe

This is an event that some of you know that happened in my life…one of the ways God directly answered me, in a really miraculous and wonderful way.  It’s not my salvation experience.  It actually happened 18 years after I became born again.

First I have to be sure you know a little of the background.  I was raised in the Catholic church, and left it back in 1982 after I came to a saving relationship with Christ.  That was not because I do not think you can have a saving relationship with Christ and be Catholic.  Actually, this event that I’ll describe was evidence of that for me.

But I will tell you that I came to know people along the way who did think that…who said that Catholicism is just too far off of the real Christian teachings in ways…it’s a cult…it’s this or that.  While personally, I had come to find God in a closer way away from Catholicism, I didn’t believe that.

My mother was always very strong and strict Catholic throughout her life.  She had the most simple, child like faith I think of just about anyone I’ve known.  Every night she would get on her knees by her bedside and say her prayers…rosary…novena, etc.  She was actually quite upset when I left Catholicism, and it took her a long time to get over that and realize I hadn’t left God, but had in my own life gotten closer to Him.

When I got the call that Mom was near the end of her life and I needed to go home, I hung up the phone and sat on my couch.  I suddenly was concerned…what if those people were right…what if Mom wasn’t going to heaven?  I remember praying in my thoughts to God, and asking, “Is she alright with you, God?”  I heard a very clear answer in my mind telling me “Yes.”  It was in fact so clear of a voice that I looked up and asked out loud, “Are you sure?”  I had this sense as if God was chuckling at me, as He responded, “Yes, I’m sure.” 

So I flew back home to be with my mother.  I got there Monday night, and it was Tuesday morning when she died.  My brother and I were in the room with her at the time, and her husband Pete.  I’d been singing to her, hymns and worship songs, and reading the Bible to her.  She was mostly unconscious while I was there, and had COPD (later an autopsy revealed breast cancer that had metastasized to her lung and kidney).  She was gasping for air the whole time. She had just turned 78, two days earlier.

When the nurse got up and walked over to her, and said, “She’s gone,”  I stood up and my eldest brother Art and I hugged and cried a little.  After we let go of our embrace, I had a vision come to my mind.  I did not ask for this…I was not ‘prone’ to having visions or seeing things or anything like that.  But I saw my mother, looking as she did when she was about 18 in the pictures I had seen of her…she was incredibly beautiful!  She was running and laughing with a joy that I could not begin to express to you.  She was holding hands with a figure in a white robe and pulling him along as she ran ahead of him.  I knew it to be Jesus, though later someone asked me when I related this story after I returned home, “What did Jesus look like?”  I realized that I had not seen his face, so I didn’t know.  Mom was the focus of this vision.

Anyway, like I said, she was running along, pulling him along, and she turned and looked straight at me and stopped for a moment and waved to me.  Then she turned back around and went on.

I cannot explain this to you, except that I believe God allowed me to have this vision to put at rest any concerns I had that Mom was “okay with Him”, and in fact MORE than okay.  🙂

I wish so much that I could find a way to make others believe like I do.  But I can’t.  I know what I know because of personal things like this that have happened.  It’s not just some belief that I have because I was told to believe it.  God has shown Himself to be very real in my life…personally, in ways like this and others.

I don’t talk a lot about the specific things that have happened like this, because the truth is that it won’t make a whole lot of difference for people who don’t believe, I don’t think.  They’ll just think either that I’m making it up, or that I’m crazy or something.  But for me, when I specifically have God answer things, like this…even to a degree that I’m in no way expecting or asking for…it’s just further evidence that He’s real…and not only that, but that He cares enough about His children to even take the time to do something like this for them.

That vision?  I’ve never, ever forgotten it.  I can still see Mom’s face clearly, still get chills when she turns and looks straight at me and waves the way she did in the vision. It was real to me, and still is.

And in the end…if that, or any of the rest of the little miraculous things that have happened in my life are just evidence that I’m crazy…I like crazy. 🙂  But for the record, if it was things associated with mental illness, its usually not things like this that make one feel the love of God so intensely.  It’s more like voices in the head telling you all sorts of weird things or something.  And there would be other evidence just besides the fact that I say God spoke to me in these ways that would indicate that I was crazy too.

From time to time, I may relate one of the stories like this from my life.  But mostly I just want to seek Him in the here and now in my life.  All those things like this one…they were for me.  They were not some sort of prophecy or something to build up anyone else…and so its just not necessary for me to share them.  I don’t mind doing it.  I just would rather you come to know God yourself and have Him show you things in your own life…your own little miracles.

For now, I have dinner on the stove and will need a miracle if it burns while I type this. 🙂

Love and blessings,


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120 Responses to Why I Believe

  1. timzauto says:

    Thanks for sharing Anne

  2. Chrystal says:

    I, too, have had experiences that are deeply personal from God. A couple I’ve blogged about but there are more that I haven’t. At least not yet. I’ve shared a few with some people but have always been hesitant to talk about them as a whole because I feared people would give me “the look.” However, I’m learning so much more about the Holy Spirit (although He’s the one that’s been giving me these experiences, I’m just now learning to acknowledge Him 🙂 ) and am beginning to open up more about them. In part, due to people like you. Thanks for sharing!

    • Anne Sikes says:

      I have to say, thank you very much Chrystal for that comment. I get a little uneasy also about sharing things like this, because there are people who will give you ‘the look’. 🙂 But yet, I want so much to share some of it at times…just to let people know why it is that I believe like I do…and not just believe, but know what I do about God and His goodness. Thank you again, and God bless you!! –Anne

  3. arkenaten says:

    Hey, as long as it makes you happy and feel better, then who am I to say otherwise, right?
    You say god, I say something else.
    C’est la vie.

    • Anne Sikes says:

      I honestly appreciate the discussion with you, for what its worth anyway. And the ‘for what its worth’ thing is that I can’t satisfy the discussion in the way that you’d like, not being someone who deals with all that historical and archaeological stuff in the ‘why’ of my faith. And you can’t satisfy it for me, in the sense that my talk of my personal knowledge of God is meaningless to you really…you want concrete proof in the form of some sort of visible evidence, and I can’t give that to you. Thanks anyway, for the conversations about it. 🙂 –Anne

      • arkenaten says:

        This is why the chriatianity has got away with the sham it is for so long. People were forced to accept or die in the old days and the tradition it established continues -not the killing of coure, but the blind acceptance, and passing t on generation to generation. It is like an insidious Father Christmas tale. Only you don;t gert sent to an eternal lake of fire if you decide it is merely a myth.

        • Anne Sikes says:

          You know…it’s not like I get some sort of pleasure out of the belief in hell. I believe in it because of what the Bible teaches, but also because just as I have seen evidence in my life of God to prove His existence to me, I have also seen evidence of the attacks of Satan in my life. But I get no pleasure out of the belief that anyone is going there. I’m not saying, “Ark…there’s a hell and I’m not going there, but you are unless you believe like me…nanny nanny boo boo!” I’m saying that I don’t want you to go there. I don’t like that there’s a hell either. But again, I get no pleasure out of believing that at all.

        • Bird says:

          Why would you say this on her site about her mother and her God? Is her embracing your truth really all that important to you? Why is it so important to start a fight with people who don’t believe the same way? If atheists don’t believe in a god, why spend so much time and effort on trying to prove it to people who are not likely to change their minds. I believe what I want to believe based on my understanding of my world. Who are you to tell me I’m wrong? When did the atheist/agnostic opinion become more important than mine? Here’s a news flash. They aren’t. To each his own..do and believe what you want. But pick the time and place for these kinds of debates. There are a ton of posts by a ton of Christian writers that you could open the door and discuss this with; but taking a post about the memory of dead mother…you have got to be kidding me!
          Not one atheist or agnostic person has ever given me a sliver of proof that there isn’t a God. I’ve just about heard every argument there is. And in every diatribe I hear a lot of pompous long words quoting arrogant people I’ve either never heard of or don’t admire at all. It looks a lot like baffling with bullshit. A lot of words designed to sound intelligent and philosophical, but when boiled down to what it all actually means, it is simply nothing more than an opinion, with no proof to back it up. Basically the same argument that is launched at Christians all the time.
          It seems to me that in the end, if you guys are right, then we die and disappear into oblivion the same as you. If we are correct, you go to hell. Frankly, I think the religious people of the world are more intelligent simply for hedging their bets.
          Seriously, a peaceful post about her mother, dude??

          • arkenaten says:

            “Seriously, a peaceful post about her mother, dude??”

            Er…did I say anything negative about her Mum?
            Nope. So maybe you ought to chill a little?
            This is a public forum. Anne visits my blog and I visit hers.
            I am confident that Anne is a big girl and can stick up for herself, no problem.
            Interesting about all the pomposity and long words by arrogant people. Sounds just like the church, doesn’t it? 
            As for God: Well, not one Christian or Muslim or Jew has ever offered a sliver of proof that there IS a God…and please remember; if you claim there is a God then the onus is on you to provide the evidence.
            It’s tough, I realise, but these are the rules of the game, I’m afraid.
            Have you any proof? Feel free to jump in anytime….
            As for spending so much time disproving God and everything religious. Oh dear, oh dear…
            If you understood, TREULY understood a fraction of the history of monotheism (and especially Christianity) then perhaps you wouldn’t be so gung-ho in your condemnation of those who are opposed to religion and all things theist.
            Why not try a little light reading about the Crusades to whet your appetite?
            Then move into the Inquisition. Though I would strongly suggest you don’t eat anything to heavy before you sit down.
            Once you have covered these two areas of religious enlightenment then come back and talk. Maybe you won’t be singing the same tune?

            • Bird says:

              Yes, you did start something negative on this story.
              Yes, it is a public forum, so I am also allowed to say what I think.
              Yes, Anne visits your blog and you visit hers. I also visit Anne’s blog and she visits mine.
              Yes, the church gets pompous and long-winded…how is that a defense for you again?
              Yes, the onus of proving God exists is mine; the onus of proving he doesn’t exist is yours? Where is your proof again?
              Yes, there are rules to games. What game are you talking about? Are you saying that trashing people’s religion is a game to you?
              Yes, I have studied monotheism. Not every Christian is blindly faithful. Some of us decided to embrace our faith after we had done our research. I sad some things happened they way they did. You atheists don’t have a better track record. Did you do your research before you embraced your ideals?
              Yes, I have read literature on the Crusades. Have you studied Stalin, Lenin, Polpot, etc. and whet your own?
              Yes, I’m back singing the same tune. You?

            • arkenaten says:

              Okay, you can use the time of the month for your tantrums, I, unfortunately have no such recourse.
              I’ll do my best with facts instead..
              Negative? That’s subjective. But I sure as hades didn’t say anything bad about Anne’s mum.
              I never for one second suggested you couldn’t say whatever you wanted. As the Yanks say…”You go girl”
              So if Stalin murdered millions and was an atheist then all atheists are murderers?
              Yes, that’s about it…we can all see the logic in this.
              And if you put this as an answer on your Bible study exam the pastor would surely have given you top marks and a sweetie.
              They were murderers. They didn’t murder because of their non-belief.
              Whereas the Crusaders murdered for a belief; and because they were enjoined to do so by the Church.
              The Church murdered hundreds of thousands in its early years – and the vast majority of these were fellow Christians; only they were declared heretics by the church.
              I do not HAVE to prove your god doesn’t exist. I choose to try. Remember, in days of yore I would not of had a choice. Neither would you, for that matter.
              But I would have yelled I believe, no problem, but I shudder to think that your soap box histrionics might well have seen you on the receiving end of a lighted match….with one of your god believers holding it to the tinder.

              And if you have studied monotheism -and I mean studied, then how the hell (sic) are you still a believer?

        • Anne Sikes says:

          What theory do you abide by as to how this world, as intricate as it all is, came about? That…to me…is proof of God’s existence. If you only take into consideration the intricacies and complexities of a human, how did that come to be? Was it by some atomic explosion? That is more ridiculous by far to me than belief in an intelligent Creator. Not just in how the body itself is put together and works, but the brain…like a computer really…the emotions and personalities of people. And then you take that and look beyond to the ocean for example. Have you ever really thought about all that life down there in the ocean? How amazing it is? How can there NOT be a God.

          As I said, God has proven Himself to me plenty. I’m not the brightest light on the planet, but I’m reasonably intelligent. I’m also very hard headed, and never have just believed things because I was told to…not without questioning why and mulling it over in my mind. I am telling you the truth when I tell you now that there is no doubt in my mind that there IS a God. As if the intricacies of humans and animals and the planets and stars weren’t enough…there is what He has done in my life that is irrefutable evidence for me.

          The other evidence that is presented…you always have some argument as to why you throw it out as nonsense. Did you know though, that even as far as the body goes, that different fruits and vegetables actually look like the parts of the body that they’re good for? Amazing! http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=106952981&page=1

          • arkenaten says:

            Firstly: Neither of us was there at the moment of creation, either by a deity’s hand or by the Big Bang. therefore it is a ridiculous thing to argue about. It is far more plausible, however, that something other than the deity called Yahweh, was responsible and until proven otherwise the Big Bang Theory wins hands down.
            A theist’s only point of reference is the bible.
            To look at a plant and say: “Look what god created” is purely subjective and has no merit in fact. Besides, which god are you referring to? There are hundreds of thousands. Please be specific.
            If you would demonstrate the veracity of this ‘book’ in terms of it being ‘God’ inspired and totally inerrant then I will become a believer. As that time will never arrive then this is a moot point and is therefore, solely a matter of faith.
            Secondly: It is incredibly self-centred to presume that this whole universe was created just for ‘us’, and that we are some deity’s plaything.
            As carbon based units, life on earth developed/evolved according to the local circumstances. So, unless you want to turn this into a philosophical discussion……?
            As for the plants. Can’t see the relevance to be honest.
            I have seen carrots that look remarkably like male genitalia.
            However, they contain beta keratin, which is good for the optic nerve. (Yet I have never seen a carrot that looks like an eye.)

            • Anne Sikes says:

              When you slice a carrot, it looks like an eye. Have a look. As for the rest of your argument…honestly…LOL. For such a remarkably intelligent fellow who abides by this need for logical explanations…”Firstly: Neither of us was there at the moment of creation, either by a deity’s hand or by the Big Bang. therefore it is a ridiculous thing to argue about. It is far more plausible, however, that something other than the deity called Yahweh, was responsible and until proven otherwise the Big Bang Theory wins hands down.” — 🙂

            • arkenaten says:

              I’ve just chopped three carrots Julienne. Can’t see a single eye.
              I’m sorry you didn’t appreciate my example of us being there at the beginning.
              Would you have felt more at home if I’d have written something scientific and factual, such as:
              In the beginning God created heaven and earth?

            • Anne Sikes says:

              That is scientific and factual, thank you! Try slicing the carrot into rings. You can see the resemblance of the entire eye in a round slice of a carrot. No, julienne doesn’t work. 🙂 The ‘fact’ is that you don’t want to believe. Every argument for God that is put before you, you throw out as having been refuted by some other atheist’s study. If you are seeking the truth, rather than to refute any argument for the truth of God…you will find it.

            • arkenaten says:

              So not Julienne, then?
              I was going to try grating next so I’m glad you alerted me .
              Tell me, if it wasn;t for your upbringing and all the churchy religious stuff how would you know anything about your god?
              Let’s face it, if it wasn’t for your folks, you wouldn;t have believed in Santa Claus would you?
              Unless you really did see some bloke in a red coat scoffing the mince pies in the kitchen.

              And before you dash off a reply, remember there were plenty of people across the globe who had never heard of your god until some stupid bloody stupid jesuit priest showed up telling them how sinful they were and to”jolly well put some clothes on right now!”
              Maybe there are still a few untainted folk out there still? WHo knows. Wouldn;t that be nice. Living there whole lives without knowing they were a sinful.
              What a wonderful thought.

      • arkenaten says:

        Thought you might find this interesting:

        The worst genocides of the 20th Century

        Mao Ze-Dong (China, 1958-61 and 1966-69, Tibet 1949-50) 49-78,000,000
        Jozef Stalin (USSR, 1932-39) 23,000,000 (the purges plus Ukraine’s famine)
        Adolf Hitler (Germany, 1939-1945) 12,000,000 (concentration camps and civilians WWII)
        Leopold II of Belgium (Congo, 1886-1908) 8,000,000
        Hideki Tojo (Japan, 1941-44) 5,000,000 (civilians in WWII)
        Ismail Enver (Turkey, 1915-20) 1,200,000 Armenians (1915) + 350,000 Greek Pontians and 480,000 Anatolian Greeks (1916-22) + 500,000 Assyrians (1915-20)
        Pol Pot (Cambodia, 1975-79) 1,700,000
        Kim Il Sung (North Korea, 1948-94) 1.6 million (purges and concentration camps)
        Menghistu (Ethiopia, 1975-78) 1,500,000

        And then there’s God (Bit before the 20th century, but then he doesn’t make appearances these days)– estimated: 10 billion http://www.ldolphin.org/pickett.html

    • Anne Sikes says:

      No, not going to keep arguing with you about this. I’ve given you plenty of reasons to at least think about the possibility that I’m right (which would make you wrong). I sense that you don’t like being wrong though. Most of us don’t. I certainly don’t. BUT…I am able to admit when I am. Like Bird says though, there’s not much point in spinning round and round in circles.

      • arkenaten says:

        You are mistaken. I am quite happy to be proved wrong. I love to learn new things and to discover that what you say is the truth would be a wonderfull boon for me and all of humanity.
        Alas, you have utterly failed to prove your case.
        As has religion through the ages.
        Why should I believe in your god any more than say, Thor?
        You don’t believe in Thor,or Krishna, or any of the thousands of other gods, so why the heck should I believe in Yahweh?
        Subjective observation, personal feelings, etc do not count as proof; they do not in fact, even come close.
        If one were to say, “God talks to me in my dreams,” one could just as easily say “I dreamed that God talked to me.”

        I reiterate. Your only point of reference is the Bible.
        This document is, in the main, erroneous.
        The doctrine that you adhere to is based on a myth.

        • Anne Sikes says:

          No, that’s the one, or ‘ones’ that you adhere to. It could be that I am simply inadequate at proving my case, which I think is a bad thing and hope isn’t true. Or it could be, that you’re just ‘pulling my chain’ with this argument and the circles we go around in. It could be that your heart is so hardened…for some reason that I don’t know…that you don’t want to let the light of truth shine in. But there is no possibility that I’m wrong. I’m wrong about things sometimes. (I hate that too!) 🙂 But not about this…why it is, that a reasonably intelligent woman such as myself, with as much life experience as I’ve had…both good and bad…continues to hold to that statement, is either that I am completely insane, or I am telling you the TRUTH. I’m stubborn, but if there was any room for doubt at all in my mind…if there was any truth whatsoever to your statements that I’m only projecting what was driven into me as a child (which doesn’t wash anyway…because I left the very specific, and strongly drilled into me beliefs I was raised in when I found the truth elsewhere)…don’t you think that I would have something within me that was begging me to listen? But there’s not…nothing…not in the least. How about you? Is there anything within you that begs you to listen…that makes you think for one second, now and then, that what I’m saying might actually be the truth?

          • arkenaten says:

            Absolutely not: not for one nanosecond.
            And I’ll explain why.
            Firstly, the christian god that you adhere to comes from a story in a book.
            That story is similar to many other stories and while I openly acknowledge that I cannot prove there is no god called Yahweh I cannot also prove there is no god called Thor or Krishna.
            And I don;’ HAVE to. I deny the existence of all gods. You claim your god is real.
            So, if there is a possibility that Thor and Krishna exist then I suppose there is just as much possibility that Yahweh exists.
            And as you acknowledge the existence of Yahweh then the criteria you use to state his reality has to be applied to Thor, Krishna and the myriad of other gods people worship.

            Therefore, if you wish me to believe in a god, I”d rather worship one that is not so bloodthrsty as Yahweh, thank you very much.
            In fact, if I have to chooses a god to worshi, then Eros seems a pretty good bet to me.
            At least he was a god of love.
            Yahweh was little more than a mass murdering meglomaniac.

            • Anne Sikes says:

              My God is not just a ‘god of love’. My God IS love.

            • arkenaten says:

              Wrong. Yahweh, liquidated almost all of humanity and all flora and fauna with the flood. He ordered Joshua to eradicate every breathing thing in Canaan – and helped him do it.
              If this is your idea of love then I suggest you find another dictionary.

            • Anne Sikes says:

              You forget, I know Him. I have to go cook dinner.

  4. Naphtali says:

    Your views are so much like mine. Yet, I have had many moments, “knowings”, a vision or two and just everyday notes from God. They are more real than life on earth. It doesn’t matter if people think you are crazy; I have had some tell me that! I am not concerned with their negative opinions of me, only that they see Jesus. if they have the gall to ridicule they really are interested. July 19 of this coming summer I am going to write the post of a vision from Jesus i had. The reason for waiting until that particular day is part of the reason it happened. Keep blogging about your insights; you never know who might read them.

    • Anne Sikes says:

      Thank you Naphtali. Sometimes I really want to just ‘spill’ it all…all the wonderful ways God has been there for me in my life, spoken to me in ways…in direct answers to prayer…wonderful ‘little’ things he’s done that just delighted me in special ways, and some of those in the midst of very dark times. But as I said before, I’m not sure they’ll have any meaning to the naysayers. Thanks so much for your comment! God bless you…Anne

      • I read your post and some of what transpired after and first of all, I loved that you cared enough as a daughter to go to your Mom’s side before she died..

        God is Good
        God is LOVE, this I know for sure as I will be another day older tomorrow, if tomorrow comes.

        As long as there are 2 people on this earth we will have arguments or at the very least heat discussions about things we are so passionate about.

        I now have the most amazing life and I know God’s handiwork has given it back to me. I ask him for forgiveness and he blesses me in the most incredible ways. I do not have to preach the bible I just have to be here and others can see I have been blessed, even when I thought he no longer loved me.

        I too have a long, amazing story to share someday and maybe I will not do it here, for it to become fodder, maybe I will publish it and give it out for free to those who could use a reminder that it really does matter how you live your life and how you treat others.

        I loved your story
        Thank you for sharing it.

        • Anne Sikes says:

          You’re welcome. It was and still is a most amazing thing in my life. I do think that we all are called in different ways. I’ve had times where I was much quieter about my beliefs than I am now. I say what’s on my heart to say, and as I’m sure you can see…it’s a variety of things. Sometimes I’m talking about my faith directly, and about the Bible. Other times I’m just walking the journey and sharing it as I go. 🙂 Our best witness to people certainly is always how we live our lives, as you say. Mine isn’t perfect, to be sure…but it’s certainly real and honest. 🙂 Thank you! And blessings to you…Anne

          • Me I am honest to a fault they say lol
            I was raised in a Congregational and a Baptist Church mostly because they were close by and my parents knew the 4 of us needed some kind of structure in a church setting learning of what the Bible taught.

            I was a Rainbow Girl, a Girl Scout and did all the right things till I was out on my own. I stumbled and fell and the hurt and pain I tried to right within myself, allowed others to destroy the girl I really was.

            I thought I was not worthy and allowed a man to treat me so badly death was looking like a perfectly sane way out. I am so grateful I was loved and blessed as I am here and present and lucky to have met you on here. We are both blessed for what we have gone though and we are now on the side of KNOWING I like it here. Makes you live a life with purpose doesn’t it, because we know it does matter.

            • Anne Sikes says:

              Definitely. Even in the painful times, there’s the sense that it will one day all make sense and meanwhile, it is most definitely worth it…with all the ways He makes Himself known and walks beside us…or sometimes carries us. 🙂

            • Yes I am much more at peace with who I am now that all doubt is gone. Funny how it works that way. 🙂 Have a great day.

            • Anne Sikes says:

              I know what you mean. We’re human and have our moments of grief or sadness, but we have that hope, and still that peace in the midst. I’m better today. Just tired. 🙂 You have a good day too!

  5. wilmoth7 says:

    Great story, Anne. I have never experienced anything like that. I am glad you got that assurance about your Mom.

    • Anne Sikes says:

      Thanks Beth. It was amazing…still is, etched in my memory like a snapshot. I can’t begin to describe the joy that was all over her in that vision. 🙂 –Anne

  6. Anne, I am so happy you are saved. We know the same God and I rejoice in that. I hate religion and I do know that God never intended to make Christianity into a religion like people do. Our God is truth and love and gives all humans, He created the freedom to believe whatever we like, even arkenaten.
    I agree with you Birdie. In my opinion atheist hate the thought someone is watching all the hurtful things they are doing. They resent to have to be accountable. That is why they be like ostriches with their head in the sand and look for people, who are likeminded in theories, which we, children of God, already rejected, since they do not work living a successful life. They just can’t argue what we have experienced , since it is a fact and it ticks them off. So be it, since they have their choice and we have ours.

    • Anne Sikes says:

      Thank you for your comment, ‘A Difference for You’. Honestly, it doesn’t make me angry. I just want them to know what I know. 🙂

    • Bird says:

      🙂 I agree, adifference. …lol… I was maybe a tad too blunt, but I haven’t been able to sleep in three days, my husband’s midlife crisis is annoying me, and I was hungry when I wrote that …But my pizza arrived, my hubby is in a good mood for once, and I feel a tiny bit sleepy, so I should return to my normal self soon. Until then, I need to not engage in verbal warfare on Annie’s site..lol!

    • kyllingsara says:

      Not all atheists are mean people. There are as many religious people as there are atheists who are small and petty.

      I don’t share your faith, but I don’t resent being held accountable for my actions. A person should always be held to certain standards, whether it being by a divinity or be their fellow human beings.

      I’m sorry for hijacking your post, Anne (which I found very moving), but I do resent being judged for not sharing your faith, above poster. I resent being dismissed simply because I don’t share something you have and that I hold to the utmost respect.

      I think faith is something beautiful and I think it’s a gift. And gifts should be given away, not forced on people.

      • Anne Sikes says:

        Thank you for your comment, Sara. I truly appreciate that very much. You didn’t hijack it at all. 🙂 Ark and I have been going back and forth on here on several topics and I truly don’t mind the discussion. What you said is true about faith being a gift and how gifts should be given and not forced. And that’s one of the things that makes my Christian faith so wonderful for me…the fact that it is a gift that’s not forced, but freely given. And what you said in that post on your page really stunned me and moved me to tears, by the way. Thank you for that. Blessings! –Anne

      • Bird says:

        When you were an atheist, you were never small and petty; hence, there was no animosity when we discussed things. I never noticed you ridiculing for the sake of just stirring up trouble. Not all atheist/agnostics fall in the category that I was putting this man in. He is rude, insinuating that I have to be PMS’ing to disagree with him. Seriously?!

  7. Steven says:

    Thanks for sharing that, it warmed me! When my dad, grandma and grandpa all died within 2 weeks and another grandpa 6 months later, I had dreams.

    One, my dad looking very young gave me a message.
    Another, my grandma and grandpa looking very young, walked out of clouds holding hands, waived to me, turned around and walked back into the clouds (your vision reminded me).
    Another, my other grandpa was playing his guitar in another room seemingly very happy.

    Like you, it gave me peace and comfort. Shalom Sister 🙂

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  9. Beautiful post!! Such intensely personal conversations/visions from The Lord are just one more reason why we, as Christians can say I know, that I know, that I know 🙂

    May God continue to bless you and thanks for sharing this very beautiful and personal story with us all.

    • Anne Sikes says:

      I know…people tell me sometimes, “That’s what you believe and I don’t believe that way,” or things like that. But it’s more than a belief like you say. It’s been proven and is a reality now. Thank you for your comment, and God bless you too! –Anne

  10. I believe personal in depth experiences, like this beautiful story, are what opens our eyes to God. The older I get the closer walk I have. My pain, hindsight and intuition in my own life have led me to know, without a doubt, that there is a God. Now whether or not you choose to cultivate a relationship with this greater power is up to you. I personally believe Christ is the “conduit” to that greater reality.
    Thank you for sharing something so personal and deep Anne.

    • Anne Sikes says:

      Thank you, and I agree with you…its those personal ways that He makes His reality known to us that set the belief so much in stone, I think. Thank you for your comment, and God bless you!! –Anne

  11. Kyllingsara: Of course you have the God given choice what you believe. My opinion doesn’t judge you, but God will one day, if you believe in Him or not.
    As far a “good and nice” athestist: They are just as much an oxymoran as “good and nice” Christians. In God’s opinion all people have sinned and fall short of God’s glory. God hates religion and never intended Christianity to be a religion= check in the Bible,and see that is not “MY” inconsequential opinion. The only difference between a Christian and an atheist is the moral code on ethics. Rescued Christians follow God as Jesus gave them an example and atheist are still seeking Truth. We all will be judged by God , if we resent it or not. I hope you understand I care about you and tell you the only truth there is, since truth is not a variable, but an absolute. God is truth. Blessings to you.

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  13. terry1954 says:

    i know this is a personal part of your own life, but i feel so calm and peaceful at this very moment, because i admit with caring for my brother, i sometimes wonder about my beliefs, and u by taking a small piece of you and laying it out here for me to read, has laid this doubt to rest. bless you Anne. a personal thank u from me, for what you have accomplished for me that i couldn’t.

    • Anne Sikes says:

      Terry, if this encouraged you at all, I am VERY thankful for that. And thank you for your comment…it is encouraging to me as well, on what has not really been a terribly good day…not a bad one, but just kind of a melancholy one. Then I read Bird’s post just now and it made me smile…and your comment made me feel all warm and fuzzy…guess I’m set! LOL Love and blessings to you!! Anne

  14. Anne, Thank you for sharing your story! I have no problem believing it, because I have seen the hand of God in my own life. I also know what God’s Word says about the end times…about dreams and visions. I’ve had a couple dreams that could have only come from God about the Rapture and about Heaven. I’ve also experienced the hand of God bringing me from the brink of death more than once in my life, and saw his miraculous in my mother’s last 3 years of life and in her eventual death. I can tell you this too, having family who were Catholic…the falsehoods in that church won’t be held against those who attended in faith if they actually believed in the Lord Jesus. Those falsehoods as in any Christian denomination will be held against the False Teachers who tried to lead people astray from the truth of God’s Word. If your mother believed in the Lord Jesus Christ as her Savior, than I have no doubt that your vision was from God to calm your fears, and your mother is indeed in Heaven with Jesus. I am not Catholic, but many of my aunts, uncles, cousins and even my son-in-law were or are Catholic, but I know many of them believed deeply in Jesus Christ as their Savior separate from just the liturgy and doctrine of the church. So God bless you Anne, and thank you for opening your heart to us.

    • Anne Sikes says:

      Thank you for your comment, ‘for his glory and praise’! The things He gives us like that are wonderful and amazing, and can be really comforting at times. There’s no doubt that vision I had was from God…a direct answer to my prayer, but in a sort of a bonus way…I certainly didn’t expect it and have never forgotten it. As far as saved and unsaved…like you say, some will be and some won’t in all sorts of churches and out of them too. I think we’ll be surprised at some we see there, and some we don’t. I do think that just being followers of rules and regulations in churches that we’re not under obligation to follow, doesn’t mean not being saved, like some think. Some say God hates religion, but I think it’s the heart of the person that matters, not the way they practice their faith. There’s a passage in the Bible that talks about that…how some people think they’re not supposed to eat this or that, and others think they can eat whatever they want…and in the end its saying it isn’t important. I cannot for the life of me remember where that passage is, or even enough of it to look it up. But its a warning against criticizing each other for the ways they worship God. It’s going to drive me crazy til I find it. 🙂

      • It’s about the dream that God gave Peter, about the cloth filled with foods, some clean and some unclean. When God was telling Peter to go to the Gentiles, and eat if they offered him food that the Jews considered unclean. Basically he told Peter not to call anything unclean that he has made. And yes, it does say in the Bible, how Jesus will in fact tell some, “I knew you not” because they have not truly believed in Him. There is only one way to get to heaven and see the Father…”I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life, No man cometh unto the Father except through me.” Whether I’m Baptist, my Aunt was Catholic, or someone else has no church affiliation, whether I’m a criminal or a saint, only one thing will get us into Heaven…belief in the Lord Jesus Christ as our Savior and Lord.

  15. faithfulnibbles says:

    Anne, I enjoyed this post. I, too, have had these type of experiences with the Holy Spirit. Anyone who has felt the Holy Spirit, knows his touch. Those that have not acknowledged Jesus as Lord and Savior and received the Holy Spirit, one day will know the truth… for every knee will bow and call Jesus Lord. 🙂

    • Anne Sikes says:

      Amen, and amen!!! I look so forward to that day, Marilyn. Meantime, all those ways He makes His presence known in those personal ways in our lives are more awesome than words can express, aren’t they? 🙂

  16. faithfulnibbles says:

    Absolutely Anne!!

  17. Bird says:

    Excellent response to arkenaten, Anne!!

      • Bird says:

        You know, the Bible, that we, you and I, hold true, says that even a fool knows there is a God. Since we aren’t supposed to argue with fools, does this count?….lol!!! I always think about that when I get drawn into these conversations!

        • Anne Sikes says:

          You’re right, and that’s a good question, Bird. I guess I think of the verse that says to be ready to give an answer to anyone who asks the reason for the hope that is in you, too, though. But arguing…yes, I agree. 🙂 If someone asks for evidence or why it is that you believe, I’ll tell them as best as I can, but if they disregard it all and refuse to see it, then there’s not much you can do but walk away.

          • Bird says:

            I agree with you. I just read his answer to mine, and it is just circular logic, relying on the assumption that all Christians may be lumped together but all atheist can not be. Crusades were Christians murdering innocent people, but Stalin, Lenin, Polpot…their atheism can’t be related to the fact that they also were murderers. No use arguing with someone who won’t listen to facts at all. I think he just likes to hear himself talk.
            I’m not responding anymore. This is just stupid, and is not a real attempt on his part to understand truth or to even understand honestly why we feel the way that we do about God. He thinks he is coming across intelligent…nothing you can do with someone who won’t open their mind along with their mouth. 🙂
            You have tons more patience than I do with this argument, though, Anne. I think I see why God put you where you are..you’re a dangerous warrior too!! Keep up the good work, sister!!

            • Anne Sikes says:

              🙂 Thank you Bird, but I have to say I honestly was glad to see Ark back today, and just as honestly…I don’t know why! 🙂 I have become extremely frustrated before in these types of arguments, which I sense is where you’re at. But I’m honestly not this time. Why? Not sure…maybe I’m a glutton for punishment, or maybe God really WANTS Ark in His camp instead of ‘Stan’s’ camp. 🙂 Love ya’!

            • Bird says:

              Oh, I believe God wants Ark in His camp. I’m just wondering if Ark is really looking for answers or just jerking your chain. But, if the Lord wants you doing this, than of course, you must obey. I feel protective of you, that’s all..But you are big girl…go kick his proverbial butt, sisah!!

            • Anne Sikes says:

              I don’t want to though!! I’d rather invite him over to go to church with me Sunday morning and then here for Sunday dinner after! 🙂 Thanks for your feeling of protectiveness, but it really is okay. I honestly don’t mind the conversations…yet anyway. And for some reason, I like the guy.

            • Bird says:

              I know what you mean. I have some that visit my site, too, that I love to death. Of course, they are much more polite and respectful than Ark..hint, hint, and they actually listen to my responses instead of make rude comments about my time of the month…Though, I fell out laughing when I read that..pretty funny. There is a reason God sends certain people to certain of His kids…I’ll butt out. I apologize.. 🙂 Love you too, Anne!

            • Anne Sikes says:

              You don’t need to apologize! Not to me!! 🙂

            • Bird says:

              🙂 🙂 🙂

            • Bird says:


              He thinks we feel threatened. Now, that just makes me sad. 😦

        • Anne Sikes says:

          🙂 I skimmed it…cooking dinner and up and down at the moment. Sometimes it’s really sad, but we do I guess at some point have to let it go and just pray and leave it to God. Still…I may have a response for him after dinner…have to think about it though, if it’ll even be worth it. 🙂

          • Bird says:

            His whole site is about this stuff. It is like he has nothing else in his life but this nonsense. Kind of a small life, if you ask me.

            • Anne Sikes says:

              But what if it was? What if it was a person who had nowhere else to do or nothing else? I mean, to a degree that’s where I’ve been with my life for awhile. I’ve been sick for so long and pretty much holed up in this apartment with this computer as largely the extent of my outside communication. And I have to wonder why it is that he’s so consumed over it…why really it is, I mean. Is it just for some sick enjoyment…or is it that whether he admits it or not, he’s seeking. And if he’s seeking in the smallest way, then it’s only because God is drawing him to do so. Jesus said no one comes to him except the Father draws them. I just don’t know.

              Maybe I’m wrong. But I don’t know why I care so much about this guy…I just know that I do for some reason.

            • Bird says:

              That’s fair enough, Anne. You should keep trying for as long as the Lord wants you to.

            • Anne Sikes says:

              Not trying to chastise you…hope it didn’t come out that way. 🙂 It wasn’t intended that way.

            • Bird says:

              No, I didn’t think that at all!!

            • Anne Sikes says:

              (sigh) Good. Ha ha…I still worry too much sometimes about how my words come across. Especially here! 🙂

            • Bird says:

              It is easy to misread typed words…body language is a big communicating device. But no, I wasn’t feeling chastised. You love who you love…what can anyone else do about it? I see he wrote me a question on his site..not on mine. He says he doesn’t understand what I’m saying. Really? So much for the astounding intellect he was boasting about. I’m finished with the discussion. He is baffling with bullshit now instead of having a serious, fact-driven debate. All I am doing for him at this point is praying… 🙂

        • Anne Sikes says:

          I know there was one comment to you that went to my spam. Actually one of yours went to spam tonight too, for the first time! It was the one where you linked his blog though. Sometimes his comments post on here and other times I have to approve them from my spam. Thanks for your prayers…and yeah, like I said in that other post, I feel almost like it’s my son I’m talking to…and I very much care. The only reason I can think of for that is that God’s laying that on my heart to do so. I’m refraining from commenting on that other post by the way…at least for the moment. I’ve talked myself blue in the face I think. 🙂 I figured I’d let others give their reasons for believing, and will just ‘listen’. Thanks Bird. 🙂

          • Bird says:

            He’s started on mine. I just shot down his wisdom. We’ll see where his heart is. He sure spouts a lot of nonsense!!

  18. Bird says:

    PS: A PMS insult? Really? LOL..That was just too sad to even respond to! How old is this kid? 12?

    “Okay, you can use the time of the month for your tantrums, I, unfortunately have no such recourse.
    I’ll do my best with facts instead..”

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  20. I have gotten a real adrenalin rush from reading all this. Hard on the old ticker! 🙂
    Sweet testimony, Anne. We’ve never met, I don’t think, but I read your comments at Bird’s a lot. Love ya, Sis.
    The Bible says not to answer a stubborn fool according to his folly, or he will just hate you.
    JESUS said: If I be lifted up, I will draw . . .
    I think the most convincing thing for some people is just to see the power of God manifested in real life. This poor person has asked for proof, but he is asking the wrong ones. WE cannot prove God. Only God can. But we could ask God to give him that proof, right? And we could ask Him to give him the grace to believe, right?

    • Anne Sikes says:

      Thanks Katharine. I appreciate your kind comments very much. I’m definitely praying, and yes…he’s asking for things that are impossible to give…I’ve known that all along. I do have to listen to the urging of the Holy Spirit in me too though…even if it seems insane to anyone else. The true proof of God comes after we believe…the true proof, and evidence. Our testimonies are used by God sometimes to draw people…and I know He can use some little thing a person says or does. It’s Him that could make someone believe…not me, and I do realize that. 🙂 I know that some people think I’m just simple minded, and some worry about me. No need for that. As for being simple minded, if I am, that doesn’t bother me. You’ll join me in prayer, right? 🙂 Blessings!! –Anne

  21. Nuts. Just sent you a reply and you-know-who delieted it in transit.
    Of course I am praying!
    And I did not mean we should stop answering our friend, but to answer according to the instructions given in the Bible: not according to his folly, but by lifting up Jesus. Trading tallies of the dead in various purges, crusades, etc., is not what it’s about — it is never about man. It is about the glories of Jesus. Lots of killing has gone down, but the only killing that mattered, ever, is when they killed the One Who couldn’t stay dead. Everything changed when He shown forth from that grave. The fact of His resurrection is provable. The fact of His miracles is recorded history. JESUS can prove there is a God. JESUS can prove which God is God. He is currently working. He is effective.

    • Anne Sikes says:

      Amen! Thank you. I agree that arguing leads nowhere. There’s only so much you can do to present your case, and after that there comes a time when you just have to walk away and leave it in God’s hands. I appreciate your comments very much. Blessings! –Anne

  22. writinggomer says:

    Great post, I love this! My…Ark makes his way around doesn’t he. 🙂

  23. efchristi says:

    What a wonderful testimony! Thank you for sharing.

    Walk daily with God at your side!


    • Anne Sikes says:

      Thank you Ed! That was truly one of the most profound moments in my life. I still get shivers recalling it, especially where I recall Mom turning and looking straight at me and waving. I can’t even describe it adequately, but I still vividly recall it. 🙂 Blessings! –Anne

  24. I had a similar experience only in the form of a dream..My husband’s mother had passed away and I knew she had visits the day before from a Baptist preacher, and Anglican minister, and 1 other but I forget which denomination..all from churches she had at one time attended. However, for reason which I won’t go into I wanted some kind of assurance that she was indeed in heaven. A few days passed and I was praying for this assurance, and I had a dream one night that she was as I remember, when first meeting her…she was running happily in fields where there were flowers galore ..I just remember it so vividly even now ..and I told my husband she is most definitely with the Lord. It was so real…I know that I know….Diane

    • Anne Sikes says:

      That’s awesome!! And I know what you mean…mine was like that…so vivid and real. Thank you for sharing that, Diane! God is awesome to answer our prayers in the most amazing and unexpected ways. 🙂

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