Some people have a life, full of activities and places to go…things to do…laughter and fun. And other people write about it. 🙂 Right now, I seem to be the latter. I love to write. But I love a lot of things, and I have participated in life through the years in many interesting ways other than just writing about it. Right now I am often within these 4 walls. That is my life. Is that bad?
Well…it is definitely not usually so healthy to stay enclosed too much in one space, with your own thoughts. I definitely think that’s true. As a matter of fact, the more I do it, the more difficult it becomes to leave the confines of the four walls. They seem to just sort of close up around me and bind me in at times.
What makes a person of worth, though? What makes a person valuable? If, confined within these walls, out of my own choosing I simply lie around and watch television…go to bed and sleep, do nothing at all…I suppose then I’m not of much value. But if I do what I can within the circumstances I find myself in…such as sitting in front of this computer even through a lot of the time, and writing…reading…talking to y’all on here, then I don’t think that’s worthless. And certainly if I take the time in the midst to draw closer to God, rather than to draw more inside myself…it’s of great benefit. Truthfully, sometimes I think he will if necessary, place us in a spot where there’s nowhere to turn other than to look to Him. God wants our attention, and not because He’s needy or something, but because He desires good for us and because He loves us.
Even such as my life is right now, I know and am so thankful that I am loved by God…accepted of Him. Sometimes I ask, “What are you doing with me, God?…won’t you please hurry up?” Sometimes I don’t like the ‘cage’ I’m in at the moment. And yet in this ‘cage’ is where I am forced to rely on Him to meet my needs. I listen for His voice and am happy when I hear it. And I believe that when the time is right in His eyes, He’ll let me out of the cage and let me fly.
Sometimes there are things people can do to change their situation, but they just don’t do it. And sometimes, for some reason, that’s not the case. Any attempt at changing things is met with a stone wall. But I know that God is using what I’m doing here…even here in this little blog. I’ve had blogs before, and never before have they grown to be what this one has grown to be in a very short time. And that’s not because I’m so wonderfully excellent somehow…it boggles my mind why it is! My daughter asked me jokingly the other day, “Why are people so interested in what you say?” Ha ha…I guess because this must be where I’m supposed to be, is the only thing I can figure.
Through it all, He never abandons me. I may flutter around in the ‘cage’ sometimes, wanting to get out, during this long waiting period I’m in. But I always settle down and continue to wait on the one who loves me and takes care of me.