Shhh


Shhh

 

Amid the silence

Soft whispers of wind

Soothe my restless soul

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A Comedy Tonight


This was a poem I wrote last year, July 26 to be precise.  I haven’t written much new material for awhile…have been busy with other things and kind of have set all that writing on the shelf for a good while.  But lately I’ve been reading through a lot of it again. 

I’m posting this poem again not because there’s any particular kind of drama going on at the moment in my life…just something I was talking about recently with a friend, and about taking the drama and finding comedy within it as much as possible.  This speaks along those lines.  I hope you’re all having a wonderful weekend.  It is good to be back. :)

A Comedy Tonight

A tragedy it is, when drama’s left to rule my life

And all about the tears I cry, the worries and the strife

What fun that it can be to take the drama all around

And turn it into comedy and laughter, I have found

~~~

I know that it’s not easy implementing this ideal

The drama that I sometimes have, is sorrowful and real

I know I must allow myself sometimes to frown and cry

To cry out to my God above and ask, Lord when?  Lord why?

~~~

But wallowing is not an option I’ll allow myself

I’ve been there and I’ve done that, now I’ve put it on the shelf

It’s much more fun to smile and laugh, e’en in the midst of pain

And in the end, the difference ‘tween insanity and sane.

~~~

So laugh at me, I won’t protest, when I am feeling blue

But don’t forget that I will do the same regarding you

I do not speak of making fun of pain that’s raw, and real

I have a heart that feels for you, it is not made of steel

~~~

Above all, may I not forget that kindness matters much

Cold shoulders often harden hearts, not so a gentle touch

This is the day the Lord has made…that’s what I’m talking ’bout

I will rejoice, and glad I’ll be, and of His love I’ll shout!

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Checking in


I haven’t been back here in so long I couldn’t remember my password.  I am as a result seriously behind on notifications, and I apologize if you have commented for no reply.  Life has been busy, but there’s much to be thankful for.

Since I’ve been here, I completed my massage therapy schooling. YAY!  I took the National exam on Monday and passed that, so have sent off for my license, and am thankful about that.  I’ve moved too, and that’s been keeping me busy…just to a different place.  Still in Pensacola.

There’s not a lot more to say at the moment.  Frankly I’m too tired to really say much.  For all your responses in my absence, whether kudos or complaints, I do thank you.  I appreciate the kudos always of course, but the complaints are good too, to remind me not to take myself too seriously.  One thing about this blog, I’m honest whatever I’m feeling or thinking though.  You can always expect that from me.

Hope you’re all doing well.  For those still around, thank you for that.

Love and blessings,

Anne

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If I’m living in a dream world, please don’t wake me


If I’m living in a dream world, please don’t wake me.

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Originally posted on 20 Lines A Day:

I’d like to be a butterfly

Though  swiftly their lives do go by

But while they live, they bring a smile

To all who see their carefree style

 

So beautiful they are, you know

While they do flutter to and fro

And every one does still awake

The child within, make no mistake

 

If only I could live that way

As if my last day was today

To simply be, until I’m not

To make the most of what I’ve got

 

Alas, I’m not a butterfly

And sometimes human tears I cry

I’m selfish sometimes, yes it’s true

When circumstances make me blue

 

But God has made me with a plan

Though I don’t always understand

So I’ll just smile and give a sigh

Whene’er I see a butterfly

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Random Thoughts for a Saturday


I haven’t been here in almost a month.  My, how time flies.  I’ve been going through a bit of a ‘slump’, personally, and just mostly trying to get through that.  Thanks to those of you who have stuck with me. 

School’s going pretty well…my grades have slacked off just a bit lately.  Nothing serious, but I’m sure it has to do with that slump because I have been having a lot of difficulty concentrating, and have been fighting off discouragement.  Again, nothing serious.  I have hope still…always.  One has to have hope or there is nothing.  My hope is in my faith.  It’s not in other people, for certain, nor is it in myself, nor is it in my circumstances.  I fail others and myself.

But that brings me to these thoughts today, about how I’m just not good.  There are those who would be ready to come along and say, “I know THAT’s right!”  There would be others who would quickly chastise me and try to point out all the good that is in me.  But I know who and what I am.  I can say honestly that I have a kind heart…I always have.  I care about people.  But I also have a quick temper…quicker with the age I’ve accrued, for certain.  I’ve always been stubborn…very stubborn.  But I haven’t always been as opinionated as I am.  When I was young, I questioned things deeply, and through that, I developed my opinions and ideas…and the things that I found to be true through it all.  Really, the only thing true through it all is the goodness of my Father God and his love and mercy…and the truth of my Christian faith. 

I’ve had a week that hasn’t gone so well in some ways.  I would say it has nothing to do with the way the election went on Tuesday, but that’s not true, because indirectly it has.  It’s not about the actual results as much as it’s about the ripple effect the whole thing has had among families and friends.  But that’s just part of it.

I can say another thing about myself that some might call ‘good’.  I am true.  If you’re my friend and we have some sort of disagreement or ‘falling out’, I’m not going anywhere.  I may step aside and give us room…but that’s usually not out of my choice.  Earlier this week it was, in one of the situations.  The person involved has some very real reasons why the ‘incident’ happened.  But that said, it was unfair to me…and didn’t just hurt me, but hurt someone else in the process.  I have my own issues and I cannot handle being in a friendship where every look, or word, or movement that I make is misconstrued to be something that it’s not.  That said, I reached out to the person with a long message, and then I apologized for bad behavior on my part, out of my anger at the way that other innocent person had been hurt through it all.  If that person wanted to make amends, I would set it aside to try to do so.  But as I said…I’m not that ‘good’ of a person that I want to reach out anymore than I already have to make amends.  The ball is in her court.

I have had other people decide to walk away from me, or become angry with me.  The same thing applies.  I will not lose sleep over it, because ultimately it’s God whose opinion I’m most concerned with.  I’m not saying I don’t want to change what I need to change.  I’m not saying I don’t want to ‘see’ those things (though sometimes I really don’t want to see them…but I do ask to see them anyway.)  I’m just saying…what it boils down to, I mean…is that it’s not what other people tell me I need to change that I should worry about.  I might consider those things…I do consider those things.  But I also know that I have some really good friends who I have great big disagreements with, and our friendship is unaffected…because we know each other.  That’s not always the case, and it’s okay…it’s going to happen.  I need to let it go.  Life’s not all about me…I don’t think it is.  Actually, I think it’s all about God…my Father in heaven who ultimately has it all in the palm of His hand.

I will carry on…I will fight my way through this discouragement I feel right now by focusing on God’s word and His absolutely unmatchable and incredible love.

Love and blessings,

Anne

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Tuesday…No Blues Day


That’s right…NO blues on this absolutely gorgeous day. :)  I haven’t even opened my blog in several days…maybe a week or so.  Have been busy with school and various things.  Grace turned 11 this weekend and we celebrated that with much joy and fun and laughter.  But as a result of the weekend’s celebration and church, I’m playing catchup today with homework and studies…exam tonight in A & P.  I got my homework done, except for a couple things I’m stumped on at the moment, so I thought I’d take a break.

School has been going well and I am still enjoying it so very much, and so thankful for the opportunity to learn and grow.  I’m so excited about the future in the field.  I had my first clinic Friday night, where we get to massage actual clients.  I was nervous but excited, but it went very well and I got very good feedback, so the next one should be easier.  I also got my grades last night for the classes I’ve completed, and I have straight A’s…4.0 grade point average.  Pardon me for bragging a little bit on that, because I am proud of myself, and very thankful.

There’s not much else going on that’s any different.  We still have blessings we’re exceedingly thankful for, as well as yet unmet needs that we’re praying and trusting for.  And I still have a smile on my face most of the time.  Well…I confess that I got frustrated when I messed up on my homework this morning…through a pencil down and broke the point off.  :) But it was a short lived moment of frustration.   Traci is on vacation this week so home from work, and Grace is home today from school with a cold.  One of Jen’s jobs (a temp job) ended so she’s looking for a replacement now, and she’s still busy as a bee with the various directions she runs in daily.  But she’s been able to be home the last few days and it’s been nice to have her here.  We heard from Tommy, and he’s now the caretaker at the farm where he works in Virginia…a blessing but a busy one, with more hours and 24/7 availability.  But he’s doing well and is thankful.

That’s it for now…really just checking in to say hello and I haven’t dropped off the face of the earth or anything. Ha ha! 

Love and blessings,

Anne

 

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